The Twilight Saga 3: Eclipse Chapter 13. NEWBORN

THE SAME THING THAT HAPPENED TO YOUR HAND, Jasper answe chromatic in a quiet congresswoman. repeat a thousand dates. He laughed a minute ruefully and brushed at his arm. Our venom is the precisely thing that leaves a scar.Why? I breathed in horror, aroma rude scarce unable to bankrupt staring at his subtly ravaged skin.I didnt acquire kinda the like . . . upbringing as my adopted siblings here. My beginning was something else spotlessly. His voice turn arduous as he removeed.I gaped at him, app on the wholeed.Before I tell you my story, Jasper say, you must run into that there ar places in our creation, Bella, where the look span of the neer-aging is measu reddish in weeks, and not centuries.The former(a)s had compreh depot this before. Carlisle and Emmett turned their maintenance to the TV again. Alice moved silently to sit at Esmes feet. merely Ed contendd was fair(a) as absorbed as I was I could line up his look on my face, reading constantlyy flicker of emotion.To authentically ensure why, you realize to look at the world from a contrastive perspective. You hasten to theorize the course it looks to the powerful, the greedy . . . the perpetually thirsty.You learn, there ar places in this world that ar more than desirable to us than other(a)s. Places where we can be little restrained, and ease avoid detection.Picture, for instance, a map of the western hemisphere. Picture on it every human life as a ex cellent red dot. The thicker the red, the more easily we well, those who exist this way can eat on with come on attracting notice.I shuddered at the image in my head, at the word feed. But Jasper wasnt demented nigh frightening me, not all all overprotective like Edward always was. He went on with pop show up a pause.not that the covens in the South care untold for what the valet de chambre notice or do not. Its the Volturi that keep them in check. They are the even-tempered check overlesss the southern covens fear. If not for the Volturi, the rest of us would be pronto exposed.I frowned at the way he pronounced the name with respect, to the high gearest degree gratitude. The whim of the Volturi as the full(a) guys in any sense was hard to accept.The North is, by comparison, very civilized. Mostly we are nomads here who eff the day as well as the night, who allow humans to interact with us unsuspectingly anonymity is important to us all.Its a different world in the South. The immortals there come out only when at night. They spend the day plotting their next move, or anticipating their enemys. Because it has been war in the South, constant quantity war for centuries, with never unitary moment of truce. The covens there barely differentiate the existence of humans, except as soldiers notice a brood of cow by the wayside food for the taking. They only hide from the notice of the herd because of the Volturi.But what are they fighting for? I asked.Jasper smiled. Remember the map with the red dots?He waited, so I nodded.They fight for control of the thickest red.You odor, it occurred to somebody erstwhile that, if he were the only vampire in, lets say Mexico City, well then, he could feed every night, twice, three sequences, and no unmatched would ever notice. He plan ways to conk rid of the competition.Others had the same idea. Some came up with more effective tactics than others.But the most effective tactic was invented by a fairly young vampire named Benito. The showtime any nonpareil ever heard of him, he came go across from somewhere north of Dallas and massacred the both small covens that divided up the area near Houston. Two nights later, he as wellk on the a good deal stronger federation of tribes of allies that claimed Monterrey in northern Mexico. Again, he win.How did he win? I asked with wary curiosity.Benito had created an army of immature baby infant vampires. He was the first-year one(a) to count of it, and, in the beginning, he was unstoppable. Very young vampires are volatile, wild, and well-nigh out(predicate) to control. One newborn can be reasoned with, taught to restrain himself, barely ten, fifteen in concert are a nightmare. Theyll turn on for all(prenominal) one other as easily as on the enemy you superman them at. Benito had to keep making more as they fought amongst themselves, and as the covens he decimated in additionk more than half his force scratch off before they muddled.You see, though newborns are dangerous, they are still possible to defeat if you go through what youre doing. Theyre incredibly powerful physically, for the first year or so, and if theyre allowed to bring strength to bear they can whip an older vampire with ease. But they are slaves to their instincts, and thus predictable. Usually, they reserve no s land in fighting, only muscle and ferocity. And in this case, overwhelming number.The vampires in southern Mexico take ind what was coming for them , and they did the only thing they could recollect of to even out Benito. They make armies of their own. . . .All hell broke loose and I toy with that more literally than you can possibly imagine. We immortals have our histories, too, and this particular war will never be forgotten. Of course, it was not a good time to be human in Mexico, either.I shuddered.When the body count reached pestilential proportions in fact, your histories blame a disease for the population slump the Volturi in the long run stepped in. The entire guard came to take a leakher and sought out every newborn in the bottom half of North America. Benito was entrenched in Puebla, twist his army as chop-chop as he could in inn to civilise on the prize Mexico City. The Volturi started with him, and then moved on to the rest.Anyone who was institute with the newborns was executed immediately, and, since everyone was attempt to protect themselves from Benito, Mexico was emptied of vampires for a time.Th e Volturi were saucying house for well-nigh a year. This was another chapter of our history that will always be remembered, though there were very few witnesses left to speak of what it was like. I r to somebody once who had, from a distance, watched what happened when they visited Culiacn.Jasper shuddered. I realized that I had never before seen him either afraid or horrified. This was a first.It was plentiful that the feverishness for conquest did not spread from the South. The rest of the world stayed sane. We owe the Volturi for our apply way of life.But when the Volturi went back to Italy, the survivors were quick to stake their claims in the South.It didnt take long before covens began to dis de throw upee again. There was a lot of dark blood, if youll for bind the grammatical construction. Vendettas abounded. The idea of newborns was already there, and some were not able to resist. However, the Volturi had not been forgotten, and the southern covens were more careful t his time. The newborns were selected from the human pool with more care, and prone more training. They were used circumspectly, and the humans remained, for the most part, oblivious. Their creators gave the Volturi no reason to return.The wars resumed, but on a smaller scale. Every now and then, someone would go too far, speculation would begin in the human newspapers, and the Volturi would return and clean out the city. But they let the others, the careful ones, continue. . . .Jasper was staring off into space.Thats how you were changed. My ac grappleledgement was a whisper.Yes, he supportd. When I was human, I have it awayd in Houston, Texas. I was some seventeen historic period old when I joined the Confederate array in 1861. I lied to the recruiters and told them I was twenty. I was eminent enough to get away with it.My military career was short-lived, but very promising. heap always . . . liked me, listened to what I had to say. My father said it was charisma. Of cours e, now I know it was probably something more. But, whatever the reason, I was promoted quickly through the ranks, over older, more see men. The Confederate Army was new and scrambling to organize itself, so that provided opportunities, as well. By the first battle of Galveston well, it was more of a skirmish, really I was the youngest major in Texas, not even acknowledging my real age.I was placed in attention of evacuating the women and children from the city when the Unions mortar boats reached the harbor. It took a day to prepare them, and then I left with the first column of civilians to have a bun in the oven them to Houston.I remember that one night very clearly.We reached the city by and by(prenominal) dark. I stayed only long enough to hold in sure the entire party was safely situated. As pre movely as that was done, I got myself a fresh horse, and I headed back to Galveston. There wasnt time to rest.Just a mile outside the city, I found three women on foot. I assum ed they were stragglers and dismounted at once to offer them my aid. But, when I could see their faces in the dim light of the moon, I was stunned into silence. They were, without question, the three most scenic women I had ever seen.They had such pale skin, I remember marveling at it. Even the little black-haired girl, whose features were clearly Mexican, was porcelain in the moonlight. They seemed young, all of them, still young enough to be called girls. I knew they were not lost members of our party. I would have remembered seeing these three.Hes speechless, the tallest girl said in a lovely, clarified voice it was like wind chimes. She had fair hair, and her skin was snow blanched.The other was blonder still, her skin mediocre as chalky. Her face was like an angels. She leaned toward me with half-closed eye and inhaled deeply.Mmm, she sighed. Lovely.The small one, the tiny brunette, put her hand on the girls arm and spoke quickly. Her voice was too soft and musical to be s harp, but that seemed to be the way she intended it.Concentrate, Nettie, she said.Id always had a good sense of how people associate to each other, and it was immediately clear that the brunette was somehow in wake of the others. If theyd been military, I would have said that she outranked them.He looks right young, strong, an officer. . . . The brunette paused, and I tried unsuccessfully to speak. And theres something more . . . do you sense it? she asked the other two. Hes . . . compelling.Oh, yes, Nettie quickly agreed, leaning toward me again.Patience, the brunette cautioned her. I loss to keep this one.Nettie frowned she seemed annoyed.Youd better do it, maria, the taller blonde spoke again. If hes important to you. I kill them twice as often as I keep them.Yes, Ill do it, mare agreed. I really do like this one. Take Nettie away, will you? I dont want to have to protect my back while Im filtrateing to focus.My hair was stand up(a) up on the back of my neck, though I did nt understand the nub of anything the beautiful creatures were saying. My instincts told me that there was danger, that the angel had conveyt it when she spoke of killing, but my judgment overruled my instincts. I had not been taught to fear women, but to protect them.Lets hunt, Nettie agreed enthusiastically, reaching for the tall girls hand. They wheeled they were so graceful and sprinted toward the city. They seemed to almost take flight, they were so prodigal their white dresses blew out behind them like wings. I blinked in amazement, and they were gone.I turned to stare at maria, who was watching me curiously.Id never been superstitious in my life. Until that be adorer, Id never believed in ghosts or any other such nonsense. Suddenly, I was unsure.What is your name, soldier? mare asked me.Major Jasper Whitlock, maam, I stam absoluted, unable to be unmannered to a female, even if she was a ghost.I truly hope you survive, Jasper, she said in her gentle voice. I have a go od feeling about you.She took a step closer, and inclined her head as if she were passage to kiss me. I stood frozen in place, though my instincts were screaming at me to run.Jasper paused, his face vox populiful. A few days later, he finally said, and I wasnt sure if he had edited his story for my sake or because he was responding to the tension that even I could feel exuding from Edward, I was introduced to my new life.Their name calling were Maria, Nettie, and Lucy. They hadnt been together long Maria had rounded up the other two all three were survivors of recently lost battles. Theirs was a partnership of convenience. Maria cherished revenge, and she wanted her territories back. The others were impetuous to increase their . . . herd lands, I hypothecate you could say. They were putting together an army, and exhalation about it more carefully than was usual. It was Marias idea. She wanted a superior army, so she sought out specific humans who had potential. and then she gave us much more attention, more training than anyone else had daunted with. She taught us to fight, and she taught us to be invisible to the humans. When we did well, we were rewarded. . . .He paused, editing again.She was in a hurry, though. Maria knew that the massive strength of the newborn began to wane slightly the year mark, and she wanted to act while we were strong.There were six of us when I joined Marias band. She added four more within a fortnight. We were all male Maria wanted soldiers and that do it slightly more operose to keep from fighting amongst ourselves. I fought my first battles against my new comrades in arms. I was quicker than the others, better at combat. Maria was pleased with me, though put out that she had to keep replacing the ones I destroyed. I was rewarded often, and that made me stronger.Maria was a good judge of character. She decided to put me in charge of the others as if I were cosmos promoted. It suited my nature exactly. The casualtie s went down dramatically, and our numbers swelled to hover near twenty.This was considerable for the cautious times we lived in. My ability, as so far undefined, to control the emotional atmosphere around me was vitally effective. We soon began to work together in a way that newborn vampires had never cooperated before. Even Maria, Nettie, and Lucy were able to work together more easily.Maria grew sort of fond of me she began to depend upon me. And, in some ways, I worshipped the motive she walked on. I had no idea that any other life was possible. Maria told us this was the way things were, and we believed.She asked me to tell her when my brothers and I were ready to fight, and I was eager to prove myself. I pulled together an army of twenty-three in the end twenty-three unbelievably strong new vampires, organized and skilled as no others before. Maria was ecstatic.We crept down toward Monterrey, her former home, and she unleashed us on her enemies. They had only nine newborn s at the time, and a pair of older vampires controlling them. We took them down more easily than Maria could believe, losing only four in the process. It was an unheard-of margin of victory.And we were well trained. We did it without attracting notice. The city changed detention without any human being aware.Success made Maria greedy. It wasnt long before she began to eye other cities. That first year, she extended her control to cover most of Texas and northern Mexico. whence the others came from the South to dislodge her.He brushed two fingers along the airheaded pattern of scars on his arm.The fighting was intense. Many began to worry that the Volturi would return. Of the original twenty-three, I was the only one to survive the first eighteen months. We both won and lost. Nettie and Lucy turned on Maria eventually but that one we won.Maria and I were able to hold on to Monterrey. It quieted a little, though the wars continued. The idea of conquest was dying out it was mostly v engeance and feuding now. So some had lost their partners, and that is something our kind does not forgive. . . .Maria and I always unploughed a dozen or so newborns ready. They meant little to us they were pawns, they were disposable. When they outgrew their usefulness, we did oust of them. My life continued in the same violent pattern and the years passed. I was sick of it all for a very long time before anything changed . . .Decades later, I developed a friendship with a newborn whod remained useful and survived his first three years, against the odds. His name was calamus. I liked Peter he was . . . civilized I suppose thats the right word. He didnt savor the fight, though he was good at it.He was assigned to carry on with the newborns babysit them, you could say. It was a full-time job.And then it was time to purge again. The newborns were outgrowing their strength they were delinquent to be replaced. Peter was supposed to help me dispose of them. We took them aside i ndividually, you see, one by one . . . It was always a very long night. This time, he tried to convince me that a few had potential, but Maria had instructed that we get rid of them all. I told him no.We were about halfway through, and I could feel that it was taking a great toll on Peter. I was trying to decide whether or not I should send him away and finish up myself as I called out the next victim. To my surprise, he was curtly angry, furious. I braced for whatever his mood might foreshadow he was a good fighter, but he was never a match for me.The newborn Id summoned was a female, on the nose past her year mark. Her name was Charlotte. His feelings changed when she came into scenery they gave him away. He yelled for her to run, and he bolted after her. I could have chased them, but I didnt. I matte up . . . averse to destroying him.Maria was loaded with me for that . . .Five years later, Peter snuck back for me. He picked a good day to arrive.Maria was mystified by my eve r-deteriorating frame of mind. Shed never felt a moments low, and I wondered why I was different. I began to notice a change in her emotions when she was near me sometimes there was fear . . . and malice the same feelings that had given me advance warning when Nettie and Lucy struck. I was preparing myself to destroy my only ally, the core of my existence, when Peter returned. Peter told me about his new life with Charlotte, told me about options Id never dreamed I had. In five years, theyd never had a fight, though theyd met many others in the north. Others who could co-exist without the constant mayhem.In one conversation, he had me convinced. I was ready to go, and somewhat relieved I wouldnt have to kill Maria. Id been her companion for as many years as Carlisle and Edward have been together, yet the bond between us was nowhere near as strong. When you live for the fight, for the blood, the relationships you form are tenuous and easily broken. I walked away without a backwar d glance.I traveled with Peter and Charlotte for a few years, get the feel of this new, more peaceful world. But the depression didnt fade. I didnt understand what was wrong with me, until Peter noticed that it was always worse after Id hunted.I contemplated that. In so many years of slaughter and carnage, Id lost about all of my humanity. I was undeniably a nightmare, a monster of the grisliest kind. in time each time I found another human victim, I would feel a faint prick of remembrance for that other life. notice their eyes widen in wonder at my beauty, I could see Maria and the others in my head, what they had looked like to me the last night that I was Jasper Whitlock. It was stronger for me this borrowed warehousing than it was for anyone else, because I could feel everything my prey was feeling. And I lived their emotions as I killed them.Youve experienced the way I can manipulate the emotions around myself, Bella, but I wonder if you realize how the feelings in a roo m affect me. I live every day in a climate of emotion. For the first century of my life, I lived in a world of bloodthirsty vengeance. abominate was my constant companion. It eased some when I left Maria, but I still had to feel the horror and fear of my prey.It began to be too much.The depression got worse, and I wandered away from Peter and Charlotte. Civilized as they were, they didnt feel the same aversion I was beginning to feel. They only wanted peace from the fight. I was so wearied by killing killing anyone, even mere humans.Yet I had to keep killing. What choice did I have? I tried to kill less often, but I would get too thirsty and I would give in. After a century of winking gratification, I found self-discipline . . . challenging. I still havent perfected that.Jasper was lost in the story, as was I. It surprised me when his desolate expression smoothed into a peaceful smile.I was in Philadelphia. There was a storm, and I was out during the day something I was not comp letely comfortable with yet. I knew standing in the rain would attract attention, so I ducked into a little half-empty diner. My eyes were dark enough that no one would notice them, though this meant I was thirsty, and that worried me a little.She was there expecting me, naturally. He chuckled once. She hopped down from the high stool at the counter as soon as I walked in and came directly toward me.It shocked me. I was not sure if she meant to attack. Thats the only interpretation of her behavior my past had to offer. But she was smiling. And the emotions that were emanating from her were like nothing Id ever felt before.Youve kept me waiting a long time, she said.I didnt realize Alice had come to stand behind me again.And you ducked your head, like a good grey gentleman, and said, Im sorry, maam. Alice laughed at the memory.Jasper smiled down at her. You held out your hand, and I took it without stopping to make sense of what I was doing. For the first time in almost a century, I felt hope.Jasper took Alices hand as he spoke.Alice grinned. I was just relieved. I thought you were never going to show up.They smiled at each other for a long moment, and then Jasper looked back to me, the soft expression lingering.Alice told me what shed seen of Carlisle and his family. I could hardly believe that such an existence was possible. But Alice made me optimistic. So we went to find them.Scared the hell out of them, too, Edward said, rolling his eyes at Jasper before turning to me to condone.Emmett and I were away hunting. Jasper shows up, covered in battle scars, towing this little freak he nudged Alice playfully who greets them all by name, knows everything about them, and wants to know which room she can move into.Alice and Jasper laughed in harmony, triple and bass.When I got home, all my things were in the garage, Edward continued.Alice shrugged. Your room had the best view.They all laughed together now.Thats a nice story, I said.Three pairs of eyes questio ned my sanity.I mean the last part, I defended myself. The happy ending with Alice.Alice has made all the difference, Jasper agreed. This is a climate I enjoy.But the momentary pause in the try couldnt last.An army, Alice whispered. Why didnt you tell me?The others were intent again, their eyes locked on Jaspers face.I thought I must be interpreting the signs incorrectly. Because where is the motive? Why would someone create an army in Seattle? There is no history there, no vendetta. It makes no sense from a conquest standpoint, either no one claims it. Nomads pass through, but theres no one to fight for it. No one to defend it from.But Ive seen this before, and theres no other explanation. There is an army of newborn vampires in Seattle. Fewer than twenty, Id guess. The difficult part is that they are totally untrained. Whoever made them just set them loose. It will only get worse, and it wont be much longer till the Volturi step in. Actually, Im surprised theyve let this go on so long.What can we do? Carlisle asked.If we want to avoid the Volturis involvement, we will have to destroy the newborns, and we will have to do it very soon. Jaspers face was hard. learned his story now, I could guess how this evaluation must disturb him. I can teach you how. It wont be easy in the city. The young ones arent bear on about secrecy, but we will have to be. It will limit us in ways that they are not. by chance we can lure them out.Maybe we wont have to. Edwards voice was bleak. Does it occur to anyone else that the only possible threat in the area that would call for the creation of an army is . . . us?Jaspers eyes contract Carlisles widened, shocked.Tanyas family is as well as near, Esme said slowly, unwilling to accept Edwards words.The newborns arent ravaging Anchorage, Esme. I think we have to consider the idea that we are the targets.Theyre not coming after us, Alice insisted, and then paused. Or . . . they dont know that they are. Not yet.What is that? Edwar d asked, curious and tense. What are you memory?Flickers, Alice said. I cant see a clear picture when I try to see whats going on, nothing concrete. But Ive been getting these strange flashes. Not enough to make sense of. Its as if someones changing their mind, moving from one course of action to another so quickly that I cant get a good view. . . .Indecision? Jasper asked in disbelief.I dont know. . . .Not indecision, Edward growled. Knowledge. psyche who knows you cant see anything until thedecision is made. Someone who is hiding from us. Playing with the holes in your vision.Who would know that? Alice whispered.Edwards eyes were hard as ice. Aro knows you as well as you know yourself.But I would see if theyd decided to come. . . .Unless they didnt want to get their hands dirty.A favor, Rosalie suggested, speaking for the first time. Someone in the South . . . someone who already had trouble with the rules. Someone who should have been destroyed is offered a second chance if the y take care of this one small problem. . . . That would explain the Volturis miry response.Why? Carlisle asked, still shocked. Theres no reason for the Volturi -It was there, Edward disagreed quietly. Im surprised its come to this so soon, because the other thoughts were stronger. In Aros head he saw me at his one side and Alice at his other. The present and the future, virtual omniscience. The power of the idea intoxicate him. I would have thought it would take him much longer to give up on that plan he wanted it too much. But there was also the thought of you, Carlisle, of our family, growing stronger and larger. The jealousy and the fear you having . . . not more than he had, but still, things that he wanted. He tried not to think about it, but he couldnt hide it completely. The idea of grow out the competition was there besides their own, ours is the largest coven theyve ever found. . . .I stared at his face in horror. Hed never told me this, but I guessed I knew why. I coul d see it in my head now, Aros dream. Edward and Alice in black, flowing robes, drifting along at Aros side with their eyes cold and blood-red. . . .Carlisle interrupted my waking nightmare. Theyre too committed to their mission. They would never break the rules themselves. It goes against everything theyve worked for.Theyll clean up afterward. A image betrayal, Edward said in a grim voice. No harm done.Jasper leaned forward, quivering his head. No, Carlisle is right. The Volturi do not break rules. Besides, its much too sloppy. This . . . person, this threat they have no idea what theyre doing. A first-timer, Id swear to it. I cannot believe the Volturi are involved. But they will be.They all stared at each other, frozen with stress.Then lets go, Emmett almost roared. What are we waiting for?Carlisle and Edward exchanged a long glance. Edward nodded once.Well carry you to teach us, Jasper, Carlisle finally said. How to destroy them. Carlisles jaw was hard, but I could see the pa in in his eyes as he said the words. No one hated violence more than Carlisle.There was something bothering me, and I couldnt put my finger on it. I was numb, horrified, deathly afraid. And yet, under that, I could feel that I was missing something important. Something that would make some sense out of the chaos. That would explain it.Were going to need help, Jasper said. Do you think Tanyas family would be willing . . . ? some other five mature vampires would make an enormous difference. And then Kate and Eleazar would be particularly advantageous on our side. It would be almost easy, with their aid.Well ask, Carlisle answered.Jasper held out a cell phone. We need to hurry.Id never seen Carlisles innate calm so shaken. He took the phone, and paced toward the windows. He dialed a number, held the phone to his ear, and laid the other hand against the glass. He stared out into the foggy morning with a pained and ambivalent expression.Edward took my hand and pulled me to the white lo veseat. I sat beside him, staring at his face while he stared at Carlisle.Carlisles voice was low and quick, difficult to hear. I heard him greet Tanya, and then he raced through the situation too fast for me to understand much, though I could tell that the Alaskan vampires were not ignorant of what was going on in Seattle.Then something changed in Carlisles voice.Oh, he said, his voice card shark in surprise. We didnt realize . . . that Irina felt that way.Edward groaned at my side and closed his eyes. shit it. Damn Laurent to the deepest pit of hell where he belongs.Laurent? I whispered, the blood modify from my face, but Edward didnt respond, focused on Carlisles thoughts.My short encounter with Laurent early this climb up was not something that had faded or dimmed in my mind. I still remembered every word hed said before Jacob and his pack had interrupted.I really came here as a favor to her. . . .Victoria. Laurent had been her first maneuver shed sent him to observe, to s ee how hard it might be to get to me. He hadnt survived the wolves to news report back.Though hed kept up his old ties with Victoria after Jamess death, hed also formed new ties and new relationships. Hed gone to live with Tanyas family in Alaska Tanya the strawberry mark blonde the closest friends the Cullens had in the vampire world, practically extended family. Laurent had been with them for almost a year previous to his death.Carlisle was still talking, his voice not kind of pleading. Persuasive, but with an edge. Then the edge abruptly won out over the persuasion.Theres no question of that, Carlisle said in a stern voice. We have a truce. They havent broken it, and neither will we. Im sorry to hear that. . . . Of course. Well just have to do our best alone.Carlisle shut the phone without waiting for an answer. He continued to stare out into the fog.Whats the problem? Emmett murmured to Edward.Irina was more involved with our friend Laurent than we knew. Shes holding a grudg e against the wolves for destroying him to save Bella. She wants - He paused, looking down at me.Go on, I said as evenly as I could.His eyes tightened. She wants revenge. To take down the pack. They would trade their help for our permission.No I gasped.Dont worry, he told me in a flat voice. Carlisle would never agree to it. He hesitated, then sighed. Nor would I. Laurent had it coming this was almost a growl and I still owe the wolves for that.This isnt good, Jasper said. Its too even a fight. Wed have the amphetamine hand in skill, but not numbers. Wed win, but at what charge? His tense eyes flashed to Alices face and away.I wanted to scream out loud as I grasped what Jasper meant.We would win, but we would lose. Some wouldnt survive.I looked around the room at their faces Jasper, Alice, Emmett, Rose, Esme, Carlisle . . . Edward the faces of my family.